Everyone in this world is cursed.
Curse to face reality and the word that breaks so many ppl hearts (LOVE).
You can imagine how many ppl hearts are smashed hopes are crushed promises tat are broken.
How many times u see your friends go back to their ex and in the end came back crying.
LOVE is a gamble.
You gamble to love someone to try it out and see whether yr chips are worth winning.
The more you win the more happy you are.
But wat if you lose?
You drag your body out of the gambling den and say goodbye.
But somehow or rather the devil is there to ask you to go back and try your luck again.
Will you still go back and gamble when you know you are at the losing end?
For me i definitely will say NO.
Its just a trap to lure you in and make you lose till you are naked and desperate.
Love is Blind?Eh wake up Love isnt Blind its the person who is in love is BLIND.They need to be smack into their senses and wake the bloody fuck up.
How many times your partner promise you something but yet in the end didnt do it?
The times when there is sweetness in the relationship and you tend to only REMEMBER ALL THE SWEET MEMORIES BUT TEND TO FUCKING FORGET THE BAD AND WORST THINGS he/she have done to you.Beat you up push you away scolded vulgarities to you treat you like mud until the fucking day you are gone here he/she comes back to beg for forgiveness.How many times he/she betray you and yet you still let him/her into your life again to destroy you?
And yet in the end you are destroyed who are there for you again when you need a hand.
Its your
friends.You cant mend a broken heart easily without friends accompanying u every single day to cheer you up.But yet at night when you are alone and lonely here comes the devil's images there to haunt you yet again.Some simple sms or msn from tat special someone can shoot right thru your heart and yet you fall again.And tats it here you go over n over again thru the cycle.Falling down picking up yourself falling down picking up yourself till you grew tired.When will it ever stop?You think you could but yet you couldnt bring yourself to do it.
Ever thought of the worst part of a relationship is where yr partner betray you and went to bed with someone else.And when you come to think of this situation your heart still go soft?Every single time complaining abt no money.Yet still can go out with chicks/guys?When he/she sleeping at home as he/she claim but he/she is actually outside flirting?
Truefax you think this is worst ever wonder wat if you are in a marriage.Tear up the ROM cert and say fuck off and go mend your heart?This is not the way you could do it.
If love is in this way,listen to my advice.
Find a wall and bang it and tel me tat it hurts.Tat is to ask you to wake up your fucking idea or bang the wall even harder till your head bleeds.Until den you know the scars are there forever and you are unable to ever forget that it hurts.This is till you realise you have face the reality.
Once you are able to face the reality your life goes back to normal.
From den on you can stay happy until someone special walk pass you and den you will see another gamble on another one.
I am just voicing out some things in real life that has happen to almost every couple.And some i have been thru too and picking up the pieces of life arent tat easy.When you fall there is someone there to pick you up,the person who push you to fall wont be there for you always.Just like the person whom is always beside you when you are crying aint the person you wan him/her to be.Too bad its so true yet unbelieveable.
Been fiddling my computer ytd with some help from Chris and Ben.Hey thanks guys i hope today it works.If it doesnt i gonna SEND THIS FUCKING COM TO JAPAN AND YOU FIX IT FOR ME lol.Stupid graphics card lag and maybe i think my RAM is fucked.Only today i will know the result.
Christmas is just around the corner and i guess most of my friends coming for BBQ at my place eh.Christmas eve and New Year eve isnt a day for clubbing.Trust me i been thru it 3 to 4 yrs every club is packed till you cant breathe or even move dun talk abt dancing or drinking.Maybe suffocate yourself abit den you will know the pain.Its going to be a relaxing day to enjoy the breeze at my hse lol.Breeze where to find breeze lol yeah the breeze will come from my FAN hahahaa.Maybe a mahjong session if i could find a table.Drinking session is a yes yes lol.
I been struggling with some thoughts and i think i gonna ignore it.Maybe it is just time to go back to face the virtual world until this year ends and maybe i wil get over it who knows =)